like a rubber band

my faith is always being stretched like a rubber band. did you know if you left a rubber band over a long time it will lose its elasticity and snap into two at the very first pull. i had a difficult exam on monday and i dont know whether i accumulated enough marks to cross the line. i maintained a healthy average over the semester but the lecturer decided he would experiment and completely change the format of questions from previous exams. i studied my best but seemed to falter on the day and now i'm in a post exam funk. there is so much on the line. graduation. my 2 month asia trip. my future. what lays ahead is a nervous wait until the evening of july 15. ive decided to not book any accomodation, process my visas or think about the trip until i know my result. but its so hard to just surrender. to let go. to not dwell. cease back up plans. oh i need a miracle.

in the darkness, in trial, my soul shall sing
of His mercy, and kindness, our offering of praise
our God never fails, our God never fails